Facebook pictures

Okay, for real. people need to STOP Tagging individuals in pictures in which they are drunk hideous messes and their hair extensions are like all over the place, their make up is all over their face and their 3 fang bangs are like stuck to their head LOL no more, facebook should disable the "tag" option. jesus.

Girls in Toronto

Post of the day, titled Girls in Toronto. Why?? because GIRLS IN TORONTO ARE FUCKED. seriously. in the last WEEK I have encountered the worst of the nut jobs. One of them decided to SEND HER FRIEND to come to where I was working to bitch me out...for something that I will definitely not talk about in this blog. but it was unreal ridiculous. next, I go out to a club last night where a certain bartender decides to scream at me for apparently hooking up with her boyfriend, which would never and did never happen. Then I come home from what was a very late night out and seem to have received emails from the very girl who sent her best friend to come yell at me. So, I'm starting to think that everyone is a crazy, psycho, bitch...when it dawns on me. All of this drama revolves around men. Every single last inch of it is inspired by a male. so MAYBE just maybe, men are the ones who make the girls crazy, who then turn on each other because of what the guys did. Seriously, I would be the MOST calm, relaxed person if guys didnt cause so much drama and stress. however, i will not ever consider lesbianism (is that a word?)
ANYWAYS, spinach and arugula salad from pusateries, turkey slices, and a morning glory muffin..is the ideal cure for an absolutely savage hangover. Okay I am off to watch grey's anatomy..another must have hangover cure. And Ladies, im not just talking about the one we get from booze. love you crazy bitches.

Hates today

so today sucks. first of all, i put an offer to a condo at 18 yorkville and the landlord is being so unco operative and wont change any of the clauses or accept my offer. So this means its back to the drawing board and i WISH that people would just not be so difficult sometimes.
SO, halloween. even tho its going to suck since everything sucks right now...I finally decided that I am still going to be anna nicole smith. mainly bc the outfit is the easiest and now i have an excuse to get my hair curled which i love doing. i guess going out and getting smashed is also a good thing when you feel like shit. here is what i dont understand..people who dont drink at all. what do they do when they are upset? do they go to the gym? bc i do that too and it helps but not as much as going out with friends, having a few cocktails, getting drunk and saying things like "yeah fuck that! i dont even CARE about that fuck it!" i mean clearly i do care and ill care in the morning but at least for a few hours i stopped caring. even though its more liquid courage than anything else. but maybe these sober sally's have something...bc they feel better through other means, and maybe it lasts? perhaps they have learned to be more carefree and not rely on anything/anyone but themselves. ive tried to take up sobriety and it just wasnt in the cards. i need my red every once in a while and possibly my clear, possibly my bubbly. you know what im saying. so, given that im upset right now im going to go back to my age old mantra "I hate my life" and have a few cocktails. although i wish i was the non alchohol drinking chick who could go to yoga or the gym or have a wheat grass shot sit down meditate and say "this too shall pass" become one with something like the universe or a catterpiller whatever it is they do and then move the fuck on for real. because this sucks. oh well, see you at the bar!! FUCK ME.

I just wanted to make a post dedicated to my best friend, MH, who was gone for about two years to pursue her goals and dreams in the city of angels. She's back now and I really have no idea what I did without her all this time? God knows. Thanks for being such a great best friend M, I couldnt really ask for more. Love you so much so so so much.

Amazing Feist/Broken Social Scene song

Check out this unreal song by Feist and Broken Social Scene, two of my very favorites. I am seeing Feist live in concert on Monday night!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ETDawF1-WU

Its time that we grow old and do some shit

So its 12:33 am on a Tuesday night and I'm drinking some hot chocolate, which I made because we all know that the 20 grams of fat ones from tims at this hour isn't happening. I am pretty upset right now, what a ridiculous night slash few days its been. Sometimes I wish that I had balls to just say what I really want to say and stop hiding behind facade's that I think make me look stronger then I am or ever will be ...emotionally that is. Basically I am pretty sure that I lost something tonight that was really important to me. It was crazy too. Because the second I lost it I realized how much it meant to me. So kudos to whoever made that overused quote up in their head one day.."you never know how much something means till its gone." I hate this. literally. I wish I was a robot or one of those people who just never gives a shit, much like i try to be with my fake facades. You see, if I had the balls to say what I really wanted to say maybe I wouldnt be in this situation now. Oh well. Here is a lesson to all of you out there in cyberspace...SAY what you want to say when you want to say it before its too late. Especially when it comes to things that are actually important to you, never hesistate. Ahhh well, back to my hot chocolate and sick to my stomach feelings. I hate this so much. I never want to feel like this again.

stood on the edge tied to a noose, you came along and you cut me loose

yes, you did. thank you JE

Monday Night

I really don't know what to call my posts. Anyways, so tonight has been pretty lame...until I discovered the playlist on Coldplay's my space page, which is awesome they have song I for some reason have neglected and considering coldplay is one of my faves I have to admit its weird. anyways this blog is boring so far. so im going to spice it up.
here is my issue, halloween. so everyone knows that halloween is basically the one night a girl can dress like a trashy whore, much like Toronto's own miss N (figure that one out readers) dresses on a Tuesday afternoon. Thats besides the point, I need a costume and i need to choose where to go. Now, usually I dress like most girls, some form of animal, which ultimately becomes a playboy outfit (thank you mean girls). Here are my choices: miss anna nicole smith (going with this fucked up celebs theme I concocted for my friends and i) or i could be a doll. now the doll, would be sooo cute!!! but then i would be the odd man out, not like im not already always the leader ha ha, but seriously. here's my other conundrum, where to go!!!! soo many options. which brings me to another point that ill discuss later bc im tired and i hate typing right now, but it involves lots of things. more to come involving: moving in to my new condo, nights out in TO, yorkville vs. queen west, fad diets, gossip about some lovely people who's secrets i am going to tell, and boys. it will get interesting, i promise.

2:41AM

I wish I could just go to sleep. Seriously, insomnia is the devil. Another one bites the dust.

Why am I doing this?

So, I've never done anything like this before and to be honest I pretty much make fun of all my friends who do. But, that being said, I spoke to a good friend tonight who told me that blogging was a vehicle she used to get people to understand her. Well, seemingly so, I am extremely misunderstood. Actually, I find that most of my issues come from the fact that people are so judgmental of who I am and don't really get to know me at all before making those judgements. So here I am. Now I can write what I really feel and think and maybe people will understand me much more. or not. All my friends have blogs, well not ALL, but the few who do, I consider to be great ones. So we'll see where it takes me, we'll see if I even decide to tell anyone about this. And for all of you who I have made fun of, I got the vest on so take your shots and do your best! haha see you in the movies...