Its time that we grow old and do some shit

So its 12:33 am on a Tuesday night and I'm drinking some hot chocolate, which I made because we all know that the 20 grams of fat ones from tims at this hour isn't happening. I am pretty upset right now, what a ridiculous night slash few days its been. Sometimes I wish that I had balls to just say what I really want to say and stop hiding behind facade's that I think make me look stronger then I am or ever will be ...emotionally that is. Basically I am pretty sure that I lost something tonight that was really important to me. It was crazy too. Because the second I lost it I realized how much it meant to me. So kudos to whoever made that overused quote up in their head one day.."you never know how much something means till its gone." I hate this. literally. I wish I was a robot or one of those people who just never gives a shit, much like i try to be with my fake facades. You see, if I had the balls to say what I really wanted to say maybe I wouldnt be in this situation now. Oh well. Here is a lesson to all of you out there in cyberspace...SAY what you want to say when you want to say it before its too late. Especially when it comes to things that are actually important to you, never hesistate. Ahhh well, back to my hot chocolate and sick to my stomach feelings. I hate this so much. I never want to feel like this again.