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Anyone who has been reading my blog (and I doubt that many people are but just in case HAHA) will have probably noticed the general theme behind it. Its called Jacqueline is trying to get it together. In the name of that, I'd like to take a bow for FINALLY finishing all the shit today that needed to be accomplished in order for me to take a huge step forward in this plan. So, today lots happened!!! First and foremost, I got the keys to my new place! Which means I can start moving in and it wont be pushed back anymore! It was getting annoying! anyways, thats accomplished. also, even though i accepted the offer to U of T for grad school I have been battling this decision in the back of my head the last two weeks, is it right? is it really going to get me where I want to go? Well, the answer is that this doubtful indecisiveness was the result of my gut feelings! Needless to say I decided to follow them when I checked my u of t email account, which has remained untouched for the last...ohhh 6 months lol. Anyways, I recieved an email from an old prof of mine who taught one of the grad courses I took during my undergraduate career (I used it to fulfill my seminar requirement and for all those debating this option...I highly recommend to re think it haha i spent the better part of my last year in the library!) anyways, he was emailing me from his new place of work at the University of Munich in Germany. He emailed me about a month ago to ask if he could use my essay on Hiedegger I wrote for him in the semi annual philosophy journal the university puts out. Of course, this was insane! I have had my essays published before but this of course has been limited to the University of Toronto journals, contraposto (also part of the u of t FAH dept), and a small fine art booklet in an art gallery in yorkville i wrote during my internship there in regard to the correlation between canadian and european art, etc. etc. SO, this new surprise totally inspired me and I wrote back to him immediatly and thank god the deadline has not yet come and gone and therefore, my wonderful essay will be published...internationally!!!!! This is huge for me and a huge confidence booster. Anyways, it inspired me to seek something else out of life. That is, to go towards a new direction! I will still be doing a masters however it will be in a different area of study, and I'm excited to be a part of it! its great! I guess all those times I wished on a falling star or fallen eyelash have maybe paid off? hahah hopefully my other wishes will also come true.
imagine if it was true that in life we really were allowed only three REAL wishes. ones that would come true 100% but u could only have 3. Now, dont think about this as a fairytale, this is real life kids, 3 full out will definitly come true wishes. What would yours be? Today I was thinking about that and what mine would be. I have one that is a for sure, but I will not share...because everyone knows that you can't tell people your wishes or they for sure wont come true! Think about it though, it helps prioritize, as long as they aren't silly like i want to own an island in fiji and lay on the beach drunk all day and tattoo my body with different coloured dolphins and teach mermaids to surf. Make real wishes that reflect what you truly want and are based on reality and realistic situations that could happen in your life. Now, once you have done that...make those wishes goals, then make those goals happen. Easier said then done right? Nahh, you just have to reach for the stars to be truly happy and trust me its worth it.
So, I've found that playing the guitar is actually rather quite relaxing. I only know like 1.3 songs lol but thats okay I just fool around on it and I love it. I can't wait till I can start learning more and more. Soon I'll be the next Janis Joplin...just you wait my Summertime is coming out soon, to an HMV near you! haha! I also plan on buying a canvas and some paint so I can begin to paint again, this of course will only happen once I move since everything is crazy in my place right now but I think it will be another great addition to the schedule hahaha! Well, my neck is killing me and I am in hardcore need of some yoga slash major stretches. So I'm off but not without sending tons of good wishes, hearts, smiles, and kisses, and hugs, ohhhh and of course gingerbread because tis the season after all, right? =) goodnight kids.