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so today was a big day for little jacqueline! i went in to trinity and basically signed my life away for the next two years hahaha well not really, but i did accept the offer to grad school. Back with my old alma mater too, im a trin girl for sure hahaha! where is this infamous trinity skulls group that is supposed to give me unreal social and business connections? come on guys make me recite some weirdo oath and teach me to speak in some crazy language! So, that being said for the next little while i really have to focus on what my thesis will be but im kind of excited to start researching, etc. we'll see what comes from all of this!
in other news a family member is very sick, which is making me really sad. I will also be out of the loop for a while as i have promised to take care of her children while she is getting the treatment she needs, so ill be surrogate mama for a bit! i actually don't mind, i love kids, especially these ones and it will be a nice change in lifestyle for me. however, illness saddens me. This is also why I love to volunteer and give to charities that are close to my heart. like Ovarian Cancer Canada. check it out, if you are reading this. its important to me and to a lot of other women out there.
I'm moving in a few days, scary/exciting/awesome!!! all three in a wonderful bundle. its crazy to see how much change not only myself but also everyone around me is going through. its great were all going through it at the same time, because its important to have friends through big changes in your life, helps you remember there is always a stable smile in a great friend. So thank you to my friends for being there for me right now :) stability in life is SO important to me and i haven't had ANY of it the last couple of years so I am hoping i am finally going in to a stage of stable life. i really need it right now. im searching out lots of things in the world to contribute to it, including people, jobs, homes, friends, etc. So i think ive covered a few things so far, we'll see how it goes..call it jacqueline's search for stability.
id also like to comment on one more thing today. it really makes me mad AND sad that people always judge me. i realize that in the past i have been a little bit out of control and wild, i realize that i have made poor decisions and allow other people to influence me. but can all of you out there who label me and tell me i lead a certain "lifestyle" honestly say that you have never made mistakes and then tried to fix them/yourself. don't you think it would do better to support me in the fact that i have already made it a public promise to become a different person. Yes, I have had slip ups, one last weekend but aside from that one i have been pretty good the past two months, i haven't gone crazy every day/night and I am on a much better track. I got in to grad school at university of toronto, have any of you? I have gotten unreal jobs lately and job offers, I have made a lot of progress in terms of my health as well as my daily life schedule and how i treat people and things in my life. i care more about myself and the others around me. so before you tell me that i am a certain person that you can for sure judge immediately, before you write me off, why don't you actually talk to me about what i have been doing lately to better myself? because its a whole hell of a lot and its fucking awesome and i don't need ANYONE assuming shit about me that's not true, especially these days. i am fucking amazing and im on a great path towards a great life and i expect GREAT things.