It's been a while

Someone, somewhere, once told me that saying a goodbye isn't painful unless you're never going to say hello again. What about if saying goodbye is painful but saying hello again would be even worse than that? Jean Paul Richter said that we should never part without loving words to think of during your absence. It may be that you will not meet again in this life. However, what if the loving words were long gone and in the past and all you could do was say the most horrible things to each other? What if the pair of you had such bitterness between you and such hate that none of these things were possible? Its a sad thing when the hill of the relationship has become so steep that making your way up again is completely and utterly impossible. Its even worse when the other person has made it quite steep on their own accord. I guess fate ordains that even the closest of people will eventually have to part. Today I heard a song on the radio I haven't heard in years that I used to love when I was about 10 years old, Amanda Marshall's "Birmingham." I never really understood it back then. I got home and looked it up on youtube and saw the video again. Abusive relationships and a girl trying to get out of it, and succeeding. Good for her. Maybe me liking this type of song back when I was 10 years old was almost a foreshadow to the future. It was kind of odd that I heard the song today of all days on the radio after whats happened the last few days. One of the quotes from the song is "She's never been so all alone, she's never felt so free." I think that exact line pretty much describes me the last couple of months. I never expected anything like this to happen to me, but it had to, and I know that there is a reason for it somewhere and somehow. I wont know until that time comes and hopefully the struggle, tears, anxiety, and deep hurt will have been worth it somehow. Anyways, to all the girls out there just like me and in the same situation..I hope you will be okay and I hope that I will be too. There is so much out there that the world has to offer and we should focus on the positives and not the negatives which we have gone through at the hands of another. I continue to have hope, faith, and love.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DaxX8AsmbYw