If it doesnt matter in 5 years, it doesnt matter

So, that new Rihanna song "Rehab" is amazing, i love it. she's so good. Watch 34 people read this blog post and judge me for liking Rihanna because she's so "mainstream" and its not cool to like mainstream people right? I should be listening to some shitty indie band to pretend like im the cool shit. fuck it. i like this song and i like rihanna. excuse my rant but to be quite honest im done pretending or trying to be something other than what I am to please other people. Which brings me to my next point, I dont care what you think. Yes you the one standing opposite me judging me staring me up and down. You dont like it I dont give a fuck. I am never ever ever again going to try to be something I am not for someone else just so they can be happy and walk all over me and I can end up unhappy. Such a waste of time. And all you ladies out there heed my advice, this goes for how you act to please other guys. and guys, you too, there are so many bullshitters out there, you think they are fucking awesome and you pass up the real girls for the fake bullshitters who pretend so that you like them. figure it out. and stop trying to act like macho idiots who dont give a fuck about things, give it up. i see through everything and everyone. you care about things, let your guard down and dont be such jerk offs sometimes. I now laugh at all these people living fake lives, pretending to be something they are not to please other people. just be yourself, do you know how much of an impact that will have on your life?? YOU will be so much happier. fuck em all. stand up chin up and walk tall, because there are too many people out there wishin you would fall flat on your face. but dont let them get to you. be you and love that you are YOU and no one else.
also i want to start another rant about assholes who play games. games are for the primary school playground, keep them there and out of my life.
seems like i have a lot of anger doesnt it? well i dont. im just fed up and ive had that "aha!" moment where im like jesus i dont give a FUCK anymore. i think im going to call it growing up, becoming more mature. you know i still run in to highschool friends of mine (yeah, not friends, more like people i knew 5 years ago) who still can't even say hello to me or act like a normal adult because of bullshit. you guys know who u are and you should definitly grow the fuck up. say hi to me, be cordial at least. i just laugh at you idiots now, seriously, i try hard to be nice to everyone i meet, no matter what so why can't u just be pleasant for 5 minutes?
its so crazy how things that used to matter so much to me, dont at all anymore. is this part of my huge change? i sure as shit hope so. because its making my life easier day by day. literally, things i was upset about as early as last week i dont even mind anymore. a huge thing for example that was a huge stress for a bit, i dont even care about it anymore. its a shrug and a giggle and i think that its not worth getting upset over. life is too short to hold on to things and make them big deals when in 5 years you wont even remember it. Cher said "if it doesnt matter in 5 years, it doesnt matter." most of the bullshit i get upset about right now wont at all matter in 5 years, so fuck it. good advice Cher. thanks for that and your cool ability to look 35 even when you are 70. props to that. anyways, yesterday i had an amazing dance class with courtney, who dropped in to CDC. Thanks to all my friends who came out for it! the National Ballet of Canada was nice enough to lend their huge studio space and it was a great turnout. It was a once in a while thing and I doubt we'll have a class like that again for a while so I was lucky to be a part of it. anyways, today i signed the lease 100% for my new place looks like i am moving november 18. So a few days later than I hoped but it gives me more time to pack, which is much needed right now considering everything that is on my plate for this weekend/ next week. I start my new job on Monday, along with my gigs at CDC, tomorrow is my Milk and Honey preformance which I am extremely excited/nervous for! but will be great. also, this weekend is pretty crazy, its my buddys bday on friday, and my moms bday on saturday and she is here to help me move so were going for dinner then im off to the res lounge for a really chill night with some great people in a calm atomosphere. Can't wait for the fun. Also, a great reunion with my broski who i havn't seen for a bit which has saddened me :( ily bro. so im off for now, enough rants/updates for today hahaha anyways...see you in the movies. Love and other indoor sports...