I like that quote so I thought I'd share.
Today as predicted, I ventured down to Queen EAST to get that goddamn blood test. What was the result? Me fainting in the stupid place. Once again, they were unable to find my vein poked me about 40 thousand times, finally found one after MANY bruises and track marks that make me look like a heroine addict. However, because it took so long to find the vein there was a huge line up and so after they took the SIXTEEN, yes SIXTEEN vials of blood the woman said "okay off you go" so I stood up and what happened? I saw some spots, saw some stars, got extremely hot, went deaf and hit the floor. I think I was out for a good 2 minutes, not long but I woke up with about 4 thousand people surrounding me. I didnt want to stick around, they wanted me to go to the ER across the street at st. mikes but I just wanted to get out of there, so I stumbled out, and STUPIDLY took the subway back home. I was so dizzy when I got out of the subway I beelined it to starbucks for a hot chocolate. SUCH a good call. After that I continued my stumbling, home bound, passed out on the couch and cancelled my work for the rest of the day (aka all the classes I had to teach). Since then I've been on this couch, I had some chicken noodle soup and whatever, feeling better. Jesus. Like I said, i HATE giving blood. Something shitty always happens.
I am excited for K's bday dinner on Saturday night at Kultura and then hopefully I am heading to Orange Lounge to see Kings of Leon preform live, however, its looking like a 50/50 deal..I Hope it happens!
Anyways I can't believe its Thursday, the week has gone by really quickly and I'm happy for it but it also scares me, days go by so quickly now. My mom says as you get older time passes faster...I hope I dont miss anything. I feel like I should enjoy life/myself more. So, I am going to add to my list of to do things: have more fun. Aka I am going to enjoy the city of Toronto alot more and try to do more things that make me smile/laugh instead of sitting half dead on this couch. That means I should probably start going to sleep earlier, stop cancelling playdates with my friends, and stop saying yes to things that don't make me happy. I think thats another huge problem I have that I can now say goodbye too since my change is now happening. I constantly say yes to everything people offer. When I say that I mean jobs of course. Not sex. LOL. So, I have to stop doing that and I am actually going to stop some of the jobs I am doing right now. I have to move next week so i'll need more time anyways but I am happy with this situation. As well, I have a pretty rad (i cant believe i just said rad, i guess that did rub off on me) job interview on monday at 9am and I'm hoping to get it and if I do, then i'll be thrilled so i dont want to jinx anything but cross your fingers for me. I can't wait to find myself, and I know that sounds so cliche but its so true. I can't wait to just be happy all day for one day, have no drama, no issues, nothing that is some huge pressing matter that has to be fixed. I cant wait to be happy and content and balanced. So in a way I guess finding myself kind of means creating my own happy existence. I guess Shaw had it right?Now I have to stop wishing and start doing! I am off to have a bubble bath in the meantime complete with epson salts and a homemade hot chocolate. see you in the movies...
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